- Will: Well, she's not responding to my advances, so she must be dead.
- Jem: Or she's a woman of good taste and sense.
November has, probably, been the best month since arriving here in japan. I am slowly getting adjusted to everything. I am slowly making friends.
September was blah. October was practically unbearable. I feel like everyday, in October, I was crying for one or another reason.
I feel proud though… in November I have cried barely at all…until today.
Today is one of those days where a bunch of problems that have been slowly piling up are coming crashing down all at once. It horrible…really.
First Off… I met my host family yesterday….or really my ‘host dad’. He seemed nice. However, a ) I found out that I cannot do a home stay unless i am attending a full two semesters at my university. I can only do home visit. b) this family wanted someone to do home stay. They were disappointed to find out that I would, maybe, probably, be leaving in March. This realization really made the whole , first meeting awkward. It a young family ,with two small boys. The host father said he would message me later to make plans for when we would first meet.
However, I never received that message. Still haven’t.
I am starting to realize that when a Japanese person, wants to get out of something, they will say “I will message you later…or call you later”.
I could be wrong. However that has been my expierence.
I have had 5 or 6 people do this to me…and it.hurts.every.single.time
It wasn’t until after the interview, when I was talking with my friend about it, that my friend mention something of why the host family could possibly disappointed in me.
My friend was like “maybe they wanted you (me) to teach their children English”
I hope what my friend said was absolutely wrong…because if it was true….then I would be absolutely heartbroken by that. </p
Also my kanji teacher has it out for me.
I do not know what her problem is.
Just because I am not fluent in Japanese, doesn’t give a person the right to treat me like a child. I am 20 years old.
I don’t know. I find university life here is too much like High school…and it bothers me because I passed that stage in my life. i don’t want to go back to that stage in my life.
Here, everything is relaxed. No homework, classes are cancelled often etc; Which is awesome for a lot of people. however, for me it torture.
I feel I am getting no where. My japanese is non existent . I spoke more Chinese in 3 months, living in Taiwan, then I have done in Japan. I self study so much. However, all my classes keep me secluded with the international students. Thus, I have no opportunities to make Japanese friends. I feel I will go back to North America a failure, at what I have came here to do, and it bothers me to no end. I do not think i can even look my japanese teacher in the eye when I get back.
I don’t know…so many things happened today. I kind of just want to forget it and move on….